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A Senator’s Response

Below is a response from my senator, Jeff Merkley, regarding my request that any health care legislation exclude federal funding for abortion. It’s obviously a form letter and a very political response, and I’m not surprised in the least.

Thank you for contacting me to share your concerns about including comprehensive reproductive health services in health care reform. While we may disagree about this issue, I acknowledge that your views are powerful and deeply felt, and please know that I respect your opinion.

As you may know, I believe access to a full scope of health services, including comprehensive reproductive health care, should be a component of every woman’s basic health care coverage. Reproductive health is a key determinant in a woman’s overall health, involving health concerns such as fertility, pregnancy care, and preventing and addressing unintended pregnancies. Currently, nearly 90 percent of employee-based insurance policies cover reproductive services. It is appropriate to allow this coverage to continue going forwards. I believe reproductive choices should be made between a woman and her doctor, not by government. Therefore, I supported the inclusion of reproductive health services in the health care reform bill, The Affordable Health Choices Act, which was recently approved by the Senate Health, Education, Labor, and Pensions Committee (HELP), of which I am a member.

Thank you, again, for sharing your thoughts with me. Although I know that not everyone will always agree with me, Oregonians can always expect me to listen to their concerns and to be honest and straightforward with my answers. I hope you will continue to keep me informed about the issues that matter most to you.

All my best,
Jeff Merkley
United States Senate

I thought health care reform was about eliminating all of the suffering about which we hear so much hyperbole. Though my kids can be difficult at times, I’ve never thought of those difficult times as moments of suffering. Somebody should tell these people that the way to avoid “unintended pregnancies” is to avoid unintended sex. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. We already have government funding of abortion through the public support of organizations such as Planned Parenthood. I only pray that this doesn’t get worse before it gets better.

Divinely Humble

ChaliceDuring the Mass, the priest will pray (often inaudibly) the following words over the wine and water to be consecrated, “By the mystery of this water and wine, may we come to share in the divinity of Christ, who humbled Himself to share in our humanity.”

This is one of the many beautiful parts of the liturgy that we often gloss right over without a second thought. Surely we can do more than simply gloss over words like, “may we come to share in the divinity of Christ.” What is this divinity of Christ? And what does he mean, we get to share in it?

It’s grace! The same grace that we received in Baptism, we receive through the Eucharist. This grace is God’s divinity – His divine life – within us. When we receive the body and blood of Christ, we receive more of this grace – more divinity. Who could ask for more?

What can we do with this divinity – this grace? We can do God’s will – we can imitate Jesus more perfectly. Grace isn’t going to help us achieve worldly glory, but it will help us to unite our own wills with the will of God. Through grace, we can humble ourselves as Christ humbled Himself. We can learn to recognize our own weakness and the infinite strength found in Christ.

What about life without grace – do we really need it? Read the Old Testament – the history of a people who lacked God’s grace. Their own human nature, like ours, was never enough for them to live consistently righteous lives.

On a personal note, the grace of God has helped me overcome addictive and sinful behaviors that I struggled with all my life. Though my own humanity was too weak to break free from these chains, the grace of God has been powerful enough to overcome any obstacle.

God is all powerful, and yet He “humbled Himself to share in our humanity.” He showed us that true strength is found in humility. How great is God, who humbled Himself only to pour out His blood for all of us, so that He could offer His divinity to us through this same blood.

An Emotional Conversion

Below is an excerpt from a conversion story that I recently read.

My journey has not been so much an exercise of will or intellect as an experience of Divine Love. My Lord pursued me, pulled me out of sin and despair, and then allowed me to suffer – so I would become emptied and able to be filled with Him. Then He pulled me, irresistibly, into His Church where He had been waiting to welcome me all along.

The entire beautifully written and emotional story can be read at mycatholicconversion.com.

Killing the TV

Kill Your TVThere are times when I dream of watching my television swing to and fro, as seen in this wonderful picture at left.  The frequency of this disenchantment with television seems to be on the rise.  I have cancelled my television service in the past, and I just may do it again — much to the dismay of my children.

Generally speaking, I don’t have much time for television.  Ironically, it is during the busy times of my life that I really enjoy having a fairly substantial television package.  When my schedule is very hectic, it’s nice to have a lot of choices during the one or two hours per week that I can afford the luxury of a little couch time.

Lately however, I have had a little more time than usual to watch television.  I always seem to make time for it this time of year because I am such a huge football fan.  It’s times like these — when I’ve been watching a fair amount of television — that I seriously think about chucking it out the window. This might sound a little extreme, but I truly have reached my limit of smut intake.

I intentionally avoid prime time television.  I don’t watch sitcoms because I don’t find crude humor as funny as I did when I was 13.  I don’t watch crime dramas because there is plenty of violence already in the news.  I don’t watch medical or hospital dramas because I don’t want to see doctors and nurses getting frisky in the broom closet.  And I don’t watch reality television because for me television is all about avoiding reality.  Basically, I watch educational television, a little news, and sports.

Even though I am fairly diligent in my attempts to monitor the purity of the content that I watch, I still feel inundated with horrible commercials.  There is just no avoiding them.  Television networks insist on advertising the next episode of their morally bankrupt series during football games.  The pharmaceutical companies need to show me some guy who needs to take a pill so that he can have lots of fun with his girlfriend — and the only thing that anyone is worried about is that his “condition” may last for more than four hours.

The worst offense, which I have just recently noticed, is so surreal that I nearly can’t believe it.  Last night, while watching the more “conservative” news channel, I had to watch a commercial (multiple times) about a service that helps you find someone with whom to cheat on your significant other.  I’m not going to dignify the service’s name by typing it, but if you’ve seen it you surely know to what I am referring.

I have decided that this is probably all that I can take.  I don’t want to completely unplug from reality and avoid the world entirely, but this filth is doing nothing positive for me.  While I would certainly miss things like EWTN, I can watch online.  I can catch up on the news online, and I can listen to sports via the Internet or traditional radio.  I do believe that I’ll unplug all my satellite paraphenalia, and reserve my television for viewing movies — movies that I have pre-screened via sites such as the USCCB movie review site.

Life is difficult enough for a 30-something man.  Temptations abound.  Television is just one source, but it’s the one most quickly elimintated.  In this economy, surely there are better things on which I can spend my money.  I think it’s time to find out.

The Candle

Votive CandlesA candle can serve a number of purposes. It can provide primitive light, a pleasant scent, or warm ambiance. But from a spiritual perspective, the candle can be a beautiful symbol of the way that we Christians are called to live our lives. One can look at the symbolism of a candle in many ways. For instance, some of us may feel like we are candles burning from both ends! But what about the votive candles that are often found in our parishes? What do they symbolize?

When we offer a prayer or petition to God before a lit candle, it stands as a reminder that our prayers continue even after we leave the church. The glorious symbolism of a candle calls us to remember the light of Christ. The light from a candle is steady, and while the flame might waver slightly in a strong breeze, it immediately returns to the task at hand. The candle completely offers itself in a sacrificial way, from the inside out. It lives to serve just one purpose, to consistently shed light for others until its time comes to be extinguished.

As my conversion continues and I grow in the spiritual life, I seek to find these hidden reminders in the beauty of God’s creation. I pray that one day, the light of Christ will shine through me in peaceful and consistent manner, just like the flame from a candle.

Pray for this Man

This is one very sick man, a completely unrepentant abortion doctor.

Dedication to Jesus

I recently stumbled into the following prayer from St. Ignatius Loyola, called the Dedication to Jesus. It think that it perfectly summarizes the ideal Christian attitude — the kind of submission and obedience that God looks for from each of us.

Lord Jesus Christ, take all my freedom,
my memory, my understanding, and my will.
All that I have and cherish You have given me.
I surrender it all to be guided by Your will.
Your grace and Your love are wealth enough for me.
Give me these, Lord Jesus, and I ask for nothing more.

Amen.

Transfusion of Grace

Each time we celebrate the Sacrament of the Eucharist, we stand before the true body and blood of Our Lord. This great mystery should fill us all with awe. Yet sometimes we become complacent, just going through the motions. We receive Holy Communion without any extraordinary sense of the powerful mystery in which we share. To avoid taking these heavenly gifts for granted, I often meditate on a number of themes during the Liturgy of the Eucharist. One theme in particular that helps me feel more spiritually involved, is a meditation on the precious blood that has been shed for us.

Blood can offer very powerful imagery. Blood is necessary for life. Without it, we cannot exist. To shed blood is very painful. It can be downright gruesome – especially the way in which Christ shed His blood for us. The agony and suffering inflicted by scourging Him, crowning Him with thorns, forcing Him to carry His own cross, and ultimately killing him by nailing him to a cross is truly horrifying. The blood and water flowing from His innocent and precious side are a very graphic representation of the way that Jesus gave himself for us completely.

If we are injured in some way that causes us to lose blood, the blood of another can be given to us to keep us alive. In the same way, the blood which Christ willingly shed for us is life giving. This heavenly blood offers us true sacramental grace, and can be life changing if we let it. It can become like a very powerful transfusion of grace in our lives.

The Dismissal

Mass comes from the Latin word, missa. In Latin, the words, Ite Missa est, signified the end of the Mass, or the dismissal. The people were sent forth, much in the same way that Jesus sent His Apostles forth. This is a good reminder to us all that the grace we receive during the Sacrament of the Eucharist is not meant to be kept to ourselves. We are called to use this grace to glorify God and spread His message to others. While all may not be well equipped to preach His gospel through confrontational means or by intellectual debate, all of us can work to unite our wills more fully with the will of God. By living with the grace and peace of Christ, we can convert souls by our actions. During the Mass, we are dismissed with a commission to do just this.

Arranging Ducks

I’m not sure why I keep doing this, but I have a painful habit of worrying about and trying to orchestrate the future. I’ve heard it stated (and maybe even mentioned it here before) that worry is a lack of faith. Still, I often try to get all of my ducks in a row, then rearrange them, then line them up in reverse alphabetical order, then…you get the idea.

It’s difficult to have peace when I fail to be in the moment. If I can slow my mind down long enough, I always realize how great my life is, how much God loves me, and how joyful I am to be a Catholic convert. One day, I hope that I will learn to find this peaceful state more quickly, before I lose two or three hours of sleep worrying about things that are beyond my control!

Truly, God does have a plan for me, and it is much better than what I could ever plan for myself. I have to continue discerning his will and deepening my conversion. More faith in God and his plan will result in less worry and more sleep for me.

Blood Money

A new documentary is on the way.  Looks exciting!

Bread & Wine

Have you ever wondered, why bread and wine?  In order to be physically with us forever, Christ instituted the Eucharist at the Last Supper.  He knew that his time with us was drawing to a close, and that we would need him with us — physically — for all time.  So he chose to make himself present to us through the Sacrament of the Eucharist — through bread and wine.

Of all the things Jesus could have chosen, he selected bread and wine.  Though there are certainly practical reasons for these choices — bread and wine were readily available to people of all classes — there has to be more to it than just practicality.

Think of the primary ingredients to bread and wine, wheat and grapes.  In their raw form, they are simple and unimpressive, yet complete and whole.  Each is certainly useful as is, without any modifications.  But when the wheat becomes bread, it becomes so much more than just wheat.  And when the grapes become wine, they take on a completely different nature, capable of bringing great cheer.

And what do these raw ingredients have to endure to become new?  The wheat is pulverized, smashed, and nearly destroyed.  The grapes are stomped and crushed — they give up all of themselves.   Both of these ingredients are completely destroyed before they rise to new life.  Christ, the innocent Son of God, was scourged, beaten, forced to carry the implement of his death, and finally crucified — but he rose again to become something even greater than we could have ever expected.  He delivers new life to us all.

Do you suppose that bread and wine were chosen only because they were practical and convenient?